At this moment… right here…right now…. I am in the best place I have been in years. In every possible sort of way. Athletically and even personally I am not one to look back on my life and wish I was where I was… this year… or that year. I never spend time looking back, or trying to recapture. I only look ahead. I don’t look back at races I have won and wished for those moments back to that I could recapture that…. life only works in forward motion.There was that big health issue that I was, am and will continue to be elusive about. Some things are for me and not social media (gasp!) but suffice to say it’s behind me. It’s been behind me I just never gave credit to how long the road to this place would be. I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
In many ways I have come back home. Starting the Valor Triathlon Project with Jennie and Tina has been what put the final touches on this healing of mine. This team…. these athletes….. it’s like we are some big crazy family. So much camaraderie. So much community. So much….. dare I say love. I can guarantee you nothing out there rivals the special bond this team has.In a month I will travel to Galveston, Texas and meet up with Molly, Donna, Trent, Heidi, and of course Charlie. Friends I have made through the years. It’s a big… friend’s weekend. Because that’s how my friends roll. We meet in odd parts of the country and race together. Ready or not.
My preparation has been good. Gone are the long endless grinding hours of Ironman. It’s good to have the Ironman chapter closed. My goal for 2013 Mont Tremblant was to get Heather her medal. I wore her jersey and got her the medal. I wasn’t there for any other reason, except to heal. Getting that for her helped me in ways I can’t describe.It’s been 2 years since I have raced the 70.3 distance. Galveston for me…. will be allowing myself to be a beginner again. A where do I go from here sort of a race. I expect to use it to show me where I am at and what I need to do for September. I expect to use it to teach me what’s working, what’s not and how to tackle this distance again. My times at this distance have ranged from 4:45 to 5:25 to even a DNF. I don’t worry about time I focus on execution. I need to re-learn the art of half iron racing again. It’s my favorite distance but it became an afterthought as longer distances became my forefront.
I selected four half iron events for this season. Texas will be the only WTC event. I have nothing against WTC. I adore them. I find Andrew Messnick fascinating. I like and respect him. It’s interesting to see him grow the WTC brand. If you were around even ten years ago you know and understand the growth and change. Sure there are issues, but every company has issues. Truth be told WTC provides myself and many other people from coaches to bike companies the opportunity to earn a decent living.With my coaching and announcing schedule … grassroot… off the cuff events fit. I have never been a big box kind of a girl. I have been a part of very big things many times. I am a lemonade stand kind of a girl. I like old school. It’s just who I am. As I designed my season I have allowed myself to go back to all that. That’s where I feel at home. That’s where I excel. I thought 70.3 World Championships was what I wanted to do…. but I have been there, done that.
I am looking for new things to chase. Maybe even Xterra.I’m feeling like… I can chase new things again. I am feeling that I can dream my little dream and touch my wheels down where it resonates with me. Where I can use the lessons of all that I have learned through 20 years around here…. and apply it to me. I finally feel like this season is mine again.
I am grateful beyond words to have regained my health and that this body of mine can do amazing things, that gives me the platform to do work I believe in. I am grateful beyond belief to work with a team that is completely unique. Our athletes this season…. I’ve never been part of something like this before. These are good days.In less than a month I will be back at one of my favorite race venues ever. Something about Galveston draws me in. I love Texas for a hundred different reasons. I need to swim in the ocean. I need to ride that long, flat, windy stretch with water on either side of me. And running in circles for 13 miles…. I’ve been doing that all winter. Toss in my amazing and beautiful friends?
I can’t wait.